Questions

Last night we were all supposed to go shopping for Toga outfits.

One of my friends hadn't answered her (room or mobile) phone all day, wasn't at dinner, and wasn't in her room (or at least didn't answer the door).

We ended up going Toga shopping anyway, but when we got back we got right back to being worried. We had a pretty good idea of where she might be (hospital) since she was there last week for dehydration, but what if she wasn't? And even if she was, we still wanted to know.

And that's the thing. We wanted to know. We wanted our worries put to rest.

We eventually called the Duty Tutor who let us in to our friend's room, and then let us use the Duty Phone to call the hospital. We found out she was there, but asleep, so we couldn't talk to her. I left a message but I doubt she'll call from the hospital. Last time she joined us for dinner as usual the day she got out.

Not answering your phone and not calling is a pretty clear indication that you don't want to talk. The DT congratulated us on being good friends, and I know we are. It's just confusing. Was it the right thing for the wrong reason, or the wrong thing for the right reason or some combination? It's the What Ifs that get in the way. What If she hadn't been in hospital?

And like I said before, we needed to know where she was. Not if she was ok. 'Oh she's in hospital. That's ok then.' Um, Self, I think being in hospital is a pretty good indication that it's not ok.

And I don't know what I'm supposed to do to make it better.